Not really nostalgic, I don’t like my past
Lotta mistakes made, a lotta shade cast
Im a terrible son, horrible brother
I wish me and my older sisters had the same mother
Cause lord knows I miss my sisters
But were all getting old soon they’ll both have misters
And they’ll both be MRS.
Am I too old for cheek kisses
I remember being in Lexis room looking at her wall
Letters from every college imaginable man she had it all
And I was like 14, still sleeping in the same bed
No concept that being weird even in my head (laugh)
You layed down put my chest on your feet I know the feelin
Youre so freaking tall my head almost hit the ceiling, fan
who get me like Deedee can
sometimes I feel that youre the only one in that family that understands
the difficulty of the situation
looks like we both might not have that final graduation
which is funny cause youre the more practical one
Lexis smart but youre the more matter of factual one
And your words can be like knives man they cut deep
But I still alternated beds when I went to sleep
And you don’t know but in my heart I lift you both up
Didn’t know when we parted ways I got choked up
You guys just got a lot of opportunities I never had
But a lot of those included dad so I aint even mad

But I REMEMBER BACK IN THE DAY MONEY WAS REAL TIGHT
LOOKING MY MOMMA IN THE FACE LIKE “WHAT WE GON EAT TONIGHT
AND SHE NEVER REALLY SAID MUCH IN REPLY
WE MADE JUST ENOUGH SO WE COULD GET BY
LOOKIN UP AT THE SKY LIKE, LIKE “WHY?’
WILL IT BE LIKE THIS TIL WE DIE?
WHAT DID I EVEN DO TO DESERVE THIS?
I DIDN’T EVEN ASK TO BE HERE, HOW ABSURD IS THIS?
AND WHY WE IN THIS HELL HOLE?! WHEN WILL WE LEAVE THIS?!
OH ANOTHER HOMELESS SHELTER, I CANT BELIEVE THIS!
WAIT, ON SECOND THOUGHT, I THINK I CAN
I HAD AN ENGINE LIKE SPIRIT LIKE I THINK I CAN!
IF I MAKE GOOD GRADES THAT BE MY TICKET OUT
BUT THAT HAD YOUR BOY HAZED CHEWED UP AND SPIT OUT

AND ONE DAY IM SURE ILL MAKE A MOVIE
AND MOST LIKELY ITLL BE INDEPENDENT
AND ITLL BE ABOUT HOW LIFE’S NOT ALWAYS LIKE A MOVIE
AND MONEYS LIKE A DRUG THAT’S GOT ME DEPENDENT
AND LIKE ALMOST EVERYBODY WILL BE THE ANTAGONIST
CAUSE EVERYBODYS ALWAYS BEING ANTAGONIZING
AND ILL BE THE SOLE PROTAGONIST
SHOOTING THROUGH ALL THIS PAIN THAT’S SO AGONIZING
And im still haunted, im still haunted always
I swear I saw Lucifer in my hallway
He said give for real man you cant win
So I swallowed all those pills and washed it down with sin
. . .turns out I cant win for losing
expected to go to sleep forever, woke up feeling woozy



And I just found out I got another loan
so . . . things will be looking good in the future
And let me keep seeing the pretty girl all alone
Keep acting stupid I just might sccop her!
I don’t know where all that confidence just came from
Cause she probably doesn’t even date any black guys
Its probly sumn her parents told her, where she came from
Cause she probly doesn’t even listen to any rap guys
Like Chelsey, saw your pictures girl you looking good
. . .And Im sorry I was so hood
And I’m sorry that your parents didn’t really like me
Its just that then I didn’t really like me
Man, truthfully I was just really scared
Didn’t want the relationship to escalate like flights of stairs
But I got white brother, these, always have your back guys
Secretly wishing I had some beez in the trap guys

And now everything that I do is getting bigger
But for some reason I still wanna pull this trigger
And make a little extra work for the grave digger
Cause half of my own friends wanna call me a nigger
And that’s even With the ER
have you feel like you feel when you in the ER
The first time I went they told me that I had Tourette’s
And the second time they told me I was clinically depressed
Hell, I just wanna go again to see what ill have next
Freezing diseases is resting right up next to my chest
Game is lookin cut throat but mom and dad cant help
Got a couple same cards mom and dad got dealt
That’s probly why Taylor doesn’t like me
I mean she likes me, just not likes me like me
But that’s fine cause one day ill most likely
Have jealous hater dudes wanna fight me
Not fight me fight me, like riddle fight me
And have European model girls wanna bite me
Not bite me bite me, nibble bite me
And if she ask me if im ready ill say trick I might be
Everything I do is so clean cut
Not even close to my mold when im cutting up
So don’t confuse me for a punchline rapper
Cause im most certainly a crunchtime rapper
Youre such a good fan to me, such a fine clapper
Sinclaire’s a hungry engineer, lunchtime sapper
And if youre not in the army, you might not get that
But id rather not get that line than 8 of my years back
I wish my dad loved my mom get all of my tears back
Wish Stephen didn’t touch my sister get all of my beers back
I wish I didn’t get bullied get all of my cheers back
I was these demons go away get all of my fears back
You probly think Im crazy for telling all my secrets
But that makes me more free than all of you so no regrets
And I stil have a couple that haven’t made lines
But I got a long way to go so just give it time
These sheep-like kids march the same, so just give em dime
So much to say on Twitter but no voice, so just give em mime
They don’t have the time to make a real film, so just give em vine
And Facebook lets em be passive aggressive, so just give em spine
Soulless children need a martyr for starters, so just give em mine
Soulless children need a martyr . . .Just give em mine
These Soulless children need souls