This is me telling all my friends im sorry
I tried to do good but it just seems that im sorry
I sacrificed that girls innocence, hari kari
Making all the wrong moves could have had that girl on Maury
I could say it was how I was raised to make excuses
That’s only if it shifts the blame, is that what it reduces
Its easy to think im here just off a bunch of dumb luck
Im the swine before the pearls point me to the nearest dump truck
Thats why after ev-e-ry de-cision I make I seem to regret it
Cut-ting up and being a burden is all in my blood its really genetic
But surely I could get it together now cause this is pathetic (fast)
I reconsider my past that could be my future cause this is prophetic
half truths and whole lies wrapped me in the armed forces
two suicide attempts made a couple armed choices
slept in my car behind the dorm for a spell
took showers on the hall to stay fresh you couldn’t tell
its funny how I got along fine when I had nothing
but when those loans came through I thought that I was something
spent every single dollar that I had on minutiae
changed my style to be a new man just to confuse ya
pretty low on the dough where did it all go
I ate the most of it what the bank statement show
Dang, it seems im back to square one
Thinking that this life isn’t really fair huh?
But its my fault, its my fault, put me on the cross
Already pierced my own side let me die from blood loss
. . .Tell me how much this blood cost
let me go and sell this plasma before im completely lost
that blood money got my top lip shivering
cause it’s a cold world hard lessons its delivering
lifes been knocking hard so I got knocked down
like three four times but on the ground look what I found










I was looking ridiculously foolish amounting to a discouraged fool
TilIheardavoicering out from my head and my heart say don’t letthis discourage you
Discourage who, discourage me, ive done this to, make you like me
And soon all others before you will see, Whose chosen who, you’ve chosen me
Every block and wall and barricade was perfectly planned so don’t even worry
Waking up in infinitis now bugattis come later so don’t even hurry
Just think of it as everyone being all the ingredients you are the heater
Stop thinking everybody koolaid better they use artificial sweetener
Don’t be coveting over the other side of the grass stop filling with greed
Little do they know they grass turning to brown they front lawns fillin with weeds
Why does it seem that all the scales of justice are lopsided you ask
Because ive been scheming and deeming a future where you have larger task
You see im grabbing it all with my right hand, with pencil in left im making these plans
Im giving to you so you understand, what you need to do to be ruling this land
You suffered like Christ, your clean in my eyes
He already died, so don’t be surprised
Ive dotted the eyes, so you can save lives, and God will provide but you have to die


OUTRO

I realize I was supposed to suffer
and im meant to suffer up until my last supper